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They meshed wonderfully, and he hadn t felt like this in years. It was both marvelous and
a source of concern. What if she wasn t feeling the same way he was? What if the sex
which, granted, wasn t all of the relationship but was a pretty big part of it, as far as he
and most men was concerned wasn t all that great? He felt he could always get a handle
on the sex itself, probably, although he knew that it was too much to hope for that she
might be into spanking as he was. He d done without it in almost every relationship he d
had, and had pretty much given up on the idea that this day and age he d find a woman
who would agree to be disciplined by him on a regular basis. Someone who would let
him set rules and be the final authority in their relationship.
Ninety-nine-point-nine percent of women would tell him to take a hike but not that
nicely if he so much as hinted at the idea that he liked an old-fashioned, husband-as-
the-head-of-the-household type of relationship. Women who wanted what he had to offer
just didn t seem to exist. He was looking for a needle in a haystack. He could get women
with no problem. But none of them even came close to acting or saying anything that
might have given him the hope of something more like what he craved.
He d been raised in an extremely loving, warm family where his father was a benevolent
dictator. No one ever doubted that he adored his family. Jack Donovan was a family man
with a capitol FAMILY. When he and his wife Barbara married, they didn t have the
proverbial pot. At one point, he was working three jobs one full and two part time, plus
picking up any other odd jobs just to make ends meet because he didn t want his wife to
be doing anything but staying at home, taking care of Hunt at first, and then the other
kids as they came along. Luckily, he was smart and a very hard worker, and eventually he
got promoted enough that he only had to work the full-time job. Despite the hours he
worked, Sundays were reserved entirely for the family. They attended services in the
morning, then usually went for a drive if it was a nice day, and ended up getting an ice
cream at Howard Johnson s as a treat. Or they d spend the day playing at home card
games were the regular Hearts, Thirty-One, Gin Rummy. Eventually, he even
scandalized his wife and taught the kids how to play poker when they were old enough,
playing for real with their allowance money.
There was never any question in anyone s mind that Jack Donovan was a family man. If
it was within his abilities, he never missed a recital or a play or a Cub Scout meeting. He
never went to a bar before he came home. He never went out with the boys. He and
Barbara had a small group of friends they socialized with on occasion, but in general,
they spent their time with the family they d created happily.
Jack ruled the family lovingly, affectionately, and with a genuine good-nature. He
always said it was better to laugh than to cry. Unlike a lot of men of his generation, he
never shied away from changing diapers or doing household chores. If he saw it, and it
needed to be done, he did it, be it drying someone s frightened tears or doing a load of
wash. He sat up with any kid who was sick, and literally danced attendance on Barbara
those few times she d come down with something.
But his rules were law. There was very little discussion if one was broken. And he d had
rules for Barbara, too. Hunt remembered their "discussions" about the checkbook which
she had a tendency to overdraw, apparently, and how she sat gingerly like the rest of
them did after a spanking the next morning, although he never remembered hearing his
mother cry or wail like his wife did but then, that was not a subject he dwelt on much. It
was definitely squicky for him.
There was no doubt in his mind, though, that his Mom had been subject to the same type
of discipline that he longed to provide for his own wife. Perhaps it was because his
parents had stayed together until they both died, loving each other rampantly each and
every day until the end, that he didn t have the usual commitment-phobia that a lot of
men had. He wanted to get married. He wasn t all that worried about kids one way or the
other if they came, they came. But he had a lot of love and care to give, and he wanted
to find that special someone who understood and accepted and needed the kind of special
consideration he could give her.
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